The Bully

I got up early this morning, went to early voting, got in line at 6:30AM and was out of there by 8AM. If you're in Atlanta and need updated early voting wait times, check here. Dekalb County has been pretty good compared to some others. My cousin in Gwinnett waited five hours on Wednesday.

Sunny is still in a hair trigger pouting mode when it comes to the PSP, but he's getting better. Guy is not in a good mood. This is a very stressful time and Sunny is obviously picking up on that. I'm also going to be gone most of the weekend doing political volunteering, and I'll have to miss his soccer for the first time, which I feel terrible about. I think Sunny understands; he's a big Obama fan. Even though we don't talk about the war that much at home, Sunny has really seized on that issue and often pipes in to political discussions calling McCain a "meanie" or a "bully" "because he wants to keep the war going".

I used to gently say, "we don't hate McCain, we just think his ideas are wrong."

Right now, that would be a lie. I'm usually very good at managing negative emotions about public figures who happen to be evil dicks. But not this morning. I was just listening to some news about McCain tying Obama to someone who is guilty of the terrible crime of being born into a Palestinian family.

From Washington Post
Sen. John McCain today compared the director of Columbia University's Middle East Institute to a "neo-Nazi" and called on the Los Angeles Times to release a video of a 2003 banquet at which Sen. Barack Obama talked about the professor, Rashid Khalidi, a leading Palestinian American scholar and friend of Obama's from Chicago.

"What if there was a tape with John McCain with a neo-Nazi outfit being held by some media outlet?" McCain asked in an interview with a Cuban radio station Wednesday morning. "I think the treatment of the issue would be slightly different."

This attack makes McCain lower than pond scum. No, wait, that's not low enough, he's lower than toilet scum in a gas station restroom.

Khalidi is a respected academic who holds beliefs that to me are commonsense, mainstream and fair. Trying to smear him as comparable to a neo-Nazi is racist, islamophobic, hateful, dishonorable, irresponsible, and of course opportunistic and hypocritical:

It turns out that McCain is treading on tricky ground when he cites the Khalidi case as an example of Obama consorting with terrorist sympathizers. The Obama campaign was quick to point out that an organization co-founded by Khalidi has received large sums of grant money from the International Republican Institute, chaired by McCain since 1993. One such grant was for $448,873 in 1998 to assist the Center for Palestine Research and Studies in its work in the West Bank.

This is a bit personal for me, because one of my friends is a Palestinian-American. We roomed together for at least a year in college. He couldn't cook, so my other roommate and I used to cook dinners for him. Oh no, I was contributing sustenance and aid on a regular long-term basis! That probably makes me a gazillion times more suspicious by association!

By the way, since my friend might be reading this, I'm sure all this stuff is getting you down terribly. All I can say for encouragement is... it has to bottom out at some point.

Important News Story That Could Alter the Course of the Election...

Or not.

I found that post linked from several humor sites, but the original blogger is dead serious. As well as barking mad.

In case you get tired digging through the mounds of "evidence" there, here's the argument in brief. Barack Obama... is... Malcolm X's love child.

I thought that after terrorism, socialism and islamunism, alien abduction charges were going to be the next stage. I guess I was wrong!

PSP Creates Devil Child

This was a rough morning.

Ojiichan flew in from Japan last night for a visit. He brought me something I really wanted and can't find here: tiny plastic sauce containers for Sunny's lunches. Something we didn't want: he gave Sunny his used Sony PSP, which blindsided us. At least it doesn't have any games on it.

Sunny has kind of freaked out over it.

This morning, he jumped out of bed at 6AM because he heard Ojiichan puttering around in the kitchen, then got Ojiichan to show him some kind of weird dancing cat costume video on the PSP. Sunny knows his morning time is supposed to be no earlier than 7 and no later than 7:30.

When I told him he needed to go back to bed he had a crying fit. He stayed in his room for a few minutes, but there was no way he could have really gone back to sleep, so Guy and I just had to get up as well. We told him 1) that was it for the PSP today unless he came home with a good behavior mark in school 2) extra morning time means extra time to do homework after breakfast.

Sunny had ANOTHER crying fit. He told me he wasn't crying about his PSP, he was crying because he missed his foster Mom, and he was mad about his PSP. I gave him a hug and said I'm sorry you're sad, but if you're going to cry about the PSP, you can cry outside the kitchen so I can make breakfast. I just closed the kitchen door and made breakfast and let him do his thing... that is, loud dramatic crying wails punctuated by occasional Brando-esque shouts of "WHYYYYYYYYY?" and appeals to an invisible judge, "MOM'S NOT BEING VERY NICE TO ME!"

After sucking down some extra coffee, I finished a quick breakfast for all of us and also lunch for Sunny. He perked up, then had another pout when he had to do homework with Guy, but it was a minor one. Then, when we were leaving for school, he decided he didn't like his jacket, he couldn't get his jacket on, no he didn't want me to help him get it on, and then it escalated to the point where he needed another time-out, this time for back-talking, even though it almost made us late for school.

Ugh.

He'll get used to the PSP eventually, but right now it's more like the PCP.

Letter to a Prospective Adoptive Parent Part II

I didn't scare her off with Part I! She emailed me back with lots of questions about the photolistings, some questions about foster care and a few remarks about people she knew who had done international. Here's my response.

Hi [],

I'm happy to help as much as I can. I'll go through your questions with as much detail as possible.

Children who have been neglected and abused have emotional and behavioral problems. Sometimes these problems are too much for a regular foster care home. The next step up is "therapeutic foster care". Therapeutic foster parents have had special training to work with children and help them heal. The next step up after that is residential treatment. For example, if a child is very depressed and harming themselves, they might be placed into a therapeutic foster home, then if the therapeutic parent says the child doesn't seem to be getting better, they are placed under intensive treatment in a residential setting.

As they get better, children are stepped down in the level of care. Children are generally not put up for adoption if they're still in a residential setting or a therapeutic foster home. Ideally, when children are put up for adoption, they are emotionally ready for adoption. Their foster parents and therapists will have prepared them over a period of time about what adoption means.

Unfortunately, things don't work according to the ideal sometimes. If the child is not ready for adoption, or the social worker places them in an adoptive home that turns out to not be compatible, then the adoption is going to disrupt and the child is going to have to go back into foster care. This represents a terrible setback and makes it that much harder for the child to trust anyone ever again. Many of the children in the national photolistings will have been through disrupted adoptions.

Especially if it's a large sibling group or really older children, like teenagers, the standards for matching tend to get relaxed. It's so difficult to find parents for these children that the social workers will take anyone they can get and hope for the best, because otherwise they might not get adopted at all.

The workers want to match children with homes that are prepared for them. This is where it gets complicated:

Parents with no children are at a disadvantage. How can they prove they can handle a lot of the special needs that children in foster care have? On the other hand, I've often heard that parents with no children are a blank slate because they don't have expectations of how a "normal child" is supposed to act, whereas regular parents may have some unrealistic expectations.

We went in one direction. We decided we had a pretty high requirement and could take no more than moderate special needs -- no FASD, ODD or RAD (you'll find out what all these mean if you stay on the path). We ended up with a child who probably has less special needs than stated. However, it took us a year of waiting and applying. We submitted short applications for many children. Many of the children we were applying for had a lot of other parents who wanted to adopt them, so that's why it took so long.

The workers are looking for parents with past success and special experience. For example, if a child has autism or cerebral palsy or multiple sclerosis, maybe one of the parents grew up in a family where there was autism or cerebral palsy or multiple sclerosis.

Our son is doing great and I think the match was really good. But if he had been placed in a home with elderly parents, or a single parent who had to work out of their home a lot, the match probably wouldn't have gone so well. He's extremely active and needs lots of exercise; emotionally, he needs a lot of attention. He has ADHD or ADHD-like symptoms, and I was prepared for that because I have a cousin who had a much more severe form of ADHD.

The photolistings really soft-pedal the issues that the kids have. They don't want to frighten off potential parents too much. Also, it's not a good idea from a privacy perspective to list all the issues a child has on a public website. Once you're approved for foster care adoption, you should be able to access a little more realistic information about the children in the photolistings. Sometimes the language is very coded. "Needs to be the only child" could mean that the child has been sexually aggressive to other children as a result of sexual abuse they have suffered.

On the other hand, it was suggested (but not required) that our son be placed in a smaller family, and he actually does very well with younger children and can play gently with them... but there were so many older children in his foster family that he felt like he had to compete for attention all the time.

Descriptions can underplay issues the children have, but they can also exaggerate and define the children by their diagnoses way too much. Some unscrupulous foster parents will exaggerate the problems their child has in order to get a higher subsidy payment.

Anyway, moving on to foster-to-adopt:

Bio parents often get their children back. Also, their relatives often get the children back instead. Reunification happens much more than adoption. To get your head around the dynamic, imagine if one of your relatives had a baby and then freaked out in some major way, got addicted to something and was sent to jail. What would happen? In the majority of families, a relative would step in and foster care would not be involved, or would only be involved for a short time.

People who do foster-to-adopt with the goal of adoption have to return more babies than they adopt, and they have to deal with that emotionally. I've heard it's very difficult, especially if you don't already have children. The reward is that you made a positive difference in a child's life. I should put you in touch with my son's foster mom, because she's really great, and she's been fostering for a long time. She has adult kids (biological), younger adopted kids and then also foster kids.

The way she approached getting [Sunny] ready for adoption was moving from a mother role to a grandmother kind of role. She told him she will still be in his life, just orbiting at a greater distance.

She lives in another state so we've only visited once so far. We plan on visiting maybe once a year. He talks to her on the phone at least once a week, and we sometimes chat on the webcam for special occasions.

We were planning on establishing a relationship with his biological mom. We had exchanged several letters through the agency. She had problems with addiction but had been doing well lately and everyone said she was on the right track. Sadly, she passed away recently, very unexpectedly. That is why we will probably be adopting [Sunny]'s brother. We've met his maternal family and we'll keep in touch with his grandmother. His father is not a positive person for [Sunny] to know, and he doesn't have any good memories of his father, so we have had no contact there. Once [Sunny]'s a lot older, maybe 16-18, it's going to be up to him if he wants to track down his father and initiate contact. Right now his old foster family is the family that figures most fondly in his memory, and he also misses his biological mom.

Social workers establish the parameters of visitations with bio families until the point of termination of parental rights. Sometimes children have been abandoned and parents will not show up at all, but usually there is some kind of contact. After adoption, the relationship is all up to you. If you foster to adopt, you would probably meet parents during supervised visits. But we didn't meet anyone besides his foster family before getting placed with [Sunny], because their parental rights had already been terminated.

It's rare, but it does happen, that some bio family members are dangerous criminals and in that case foster and adoptive families have to stay anonymous and make sure no identifying info like last names or phone numbers is given out.

Often they are just very depressed and passive people who were trapped in a cycle of abuse themselves as children. Contact with them should be dictated by whether or not it's healthy for the child. If the child was seriously harmed by them, it's better to have a clean break and a fresh start... but there are often other extended family members who can still maintain healthy contact and keep the child connected to their roots. Also, sometimes a parent will turn their life around and become a positive person for the child to have contact with.

As far as wanting to help out bio family, I think the boundaries are made pretty clear to all parties. As a foster parent you're taking care of their children and probably helping reunify them with their children, so asking you for money or non-child-related help is totally out of bounds of the relationship.

As for support: after adopting from foster care, support level really varies. I went with a private (non-county) agency that has great support. We have support group meetings every month and special activities for the children on a quarterly basis. If you go through local counties or states, they will often have nothing and you're on your own. The major help that you get is the subsidy and Medicaid. The subsidy pays for a lot of stuff you need. Medicaid means that if your child develops expensive problems, you usually won't have to pay for the treatment. My son is on a prescription that would have cost us EIGHT HUNDRED DOLLARS to fill, but with Medicaid it's free. Medicaid coverage for psychiatric or behavioral issues is much more comprehensive than what you get would get in a company-sponsored health plan... however, the quality of the providers is not as good and the choice is restricted.

International adoption: I think there are a lot of myths about it. A lot of people believe that children from foreign countries are safe to adopt whereas children from the U.S. are "damaged"... that's totally false. All children are damaged in some way when they're removed from the family they were born into; it never happens for a happy reason. You just have less transparency in a foreign country than you do in America. For example, [Sunny]'s foster mother said a neighboring family next to her adopted a baby girl from Russia. When the girl was 12, she was institutionalized for fetal alcohol spectrum disorder. [Sunny]'s foster mom adopted a child with the same issue... but she knew what she was getting into beforehand, and she had financial support from the state, and her adopted child is doing well enough that I think he'll probably graduate regular school and live independently. International adoption families don't get the education that foster adoptive families here do, they're not as prepared, and they pay vast sums of money and wait many years for uncertain outcomes out of foreign bureaucracies.

Also, like you mention, a lot of people go that route because they don't want to deal with birth families. Frankly, I think that's a very selfish and consumeristic attitude. Many international adoptees feel terrible pain because they will never know who their biological parents are. Especially when they grow up and become parents themselves, they miss knowing that. Being happy about that lack of knowledge does not seem fitting. I am not against all international adoption, but the way it's practiced in America really disturbs me for many reasons.

I'd like to put you in touch with [Sunny]'s foster mom, she could answer a lot of questions about fostering. Since she's not in your state, please keep in mind some legal things are different. Here's a good link for your state:

http://www.nacac.org/ [state profile]

The subsidy levels they list are basic levels. Any special need, even a mild one, will be added on top of that.

Here is a forum with lots of personal stories about adopting from foster care, and tons of FAQs.

http://fosteringandadoptingolderchildren.yuku.com/bfosteringandadoptingolderchildren

Here's a very active Yahoo Group:

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/A_O_K/

If you read through the last two you'll hear all kinds of horror stories about what can go wrong. It's important to go into it with eyes open. However, also keep in mind there are many families, like many of the ones I know through my agency, who haven't encounterd a lot of speed bumps and don't post their stories because they have nothing beyond the normal level of family drama.

What kind of times are you available on the phone? If you send me your number, I can ask [Sunny]'s foster mom to give you a call.

Regards,
[atlasien]

Troy Davis Stay of Execution Granted, Thank Goodness

From Amnesty International:

Please double the impact of your action by spreading the word to your friends and family about Troy Davis. Ask them to visit www.amnestyusa.org/troydavis to help prevent a monumental injustice.

Cuentos de Fantasmas

Another mixed weekend. Sunny behaved very badly this morning, but I think he learned a good lesson from his consequence. He was pretty good the rest of the day. He seems to be a little more agitated and jumpy than usual, and perhaps this is linked to his medicine stabilizing on half dosage. We're going to leave him on that until at least the end of this year and the start of school in spring.

We went to "A Tour of Southern Ghosts" at Stone Mountain the other night. It was a walking tour with different storytellers dressed in 19th century costumes telling ghost stories about haints and boo-hags on the old plantation grounds, linked by the really hokey refrain of BOO Y'ALL! I wished there was more than one African-American storyteller, but other than that it was pretty good. It was just Sunny's level; a real haunted house would have freaked him out. He was more scared than the other kids, and needed a lot of hugs during certain parts of the stories, but he really enjoyed the experience. I'm also impressed that he was able to focus on the storytelling so well.

He told me an encouraging story today. He either dreamed it last night or made it up in the morning. The story was that a boy named Sunny (himself) was walking in a haunted house. A skeleton came up behind him. But then Yoda, who was really Sunny, came by and fought off the skeleton with his lightsaber, and then warned Sunny to leave the house before he got hurt.

I told him I was proud of him for turning a nightmare around and taking control over the situation. I think the therapist is going to look on this as a positive development.

We received his progress report, although I really don't know how to read it. As far as I can tell, it confirms what we already know: he's not deficient in any area, but his lack of focus is keeping him from living up to his potential.

Spanish is a bright spot. He loves his Spanish class and is doing very well there. Vocabulary, either English or Spanish, is his great strength. Sometime he irritates me by saying that such and such is the right way to pronounce a word when I know it's not. I've taught him it's OK to have different opinions as long as he expresses it politely (he's now saying "I disagree with that statement!" which is really cute) but arguing about the right way to pronounce a Spanish word usually gets him a lecture that learning Spanish is not about opinions; there is a right way and a wrong way to pronounce a word, and I'm right and he's wrong. Anyway, my stubbornness is one of the reasons it's best that I leave the majority of his academic development to other people.

I did get a chance tonight to do some fun education about the history of Spanish, a topic I love. In the car, Sunny was asking me about different words for fruits. We did "banana/banana" (there is a very important pronunciation difference involved) "apple/manzana" and "pear/pera". Guy asked me how to say "carrot". Since my Spanish is so rusty, that took me a few seconds. "It's... umm... I remember it sounds absolutely nothing like carrot. A-ha: zanahoria!" Sunny claimed he was never going to be able to say that, but after breaking it down and practicing a little bit (sah-nah-oar-yah) he got it.

I told them that the word "zanahoria" sounds like nothing Latinate or even Indo-European because its origin is Arabic. Sunny thought I meant Aladdin when I said Latin, which gave me the chance to explain that like in the movie Aladdin, people who spoke Arabic live in the Middle East and Northern Africa, but many of them also used to live in Spain, which is how some words in their language got mixed together with Spanish.

Then I explained that so many people speak Spanish today because a long time ago some people from Spain came to the southern part of America and had a fight with the Native Americans and killed many of them and made them speak Spanish, even though the Native Americans fought back and some of them still speak their original languages.

Sunny said, "Thank you for that advice, Mom, especially because we're learning about Spain in music class!"

Ah... I love it when he appreciates me going off on a history whirl like that. And it's fun explaining things in a way a child can understand. Last month, he asked me what England was, and I told him "England is an island off the coast of France". My mother almost had a fit laughing. She said she wished she could have seen the face of an English person hearing me describe England that way. "But it's true!" I protested.

What can I say? I believe in literal geography. If it were up to me, I would delete Europe as a continent and rename it "Northwest Asia".

Scary Stories

The election is giving me a stomachache!

I've been following a depressing story about an Obama canvasser in Wisconsin getting attacked. Her last name is Takehara, so she's either Japanese-American or married to one (I think it's been confirmed she is JA now). A recent post from Asian Americans for Obama outlines a lot of my feelings.

Finally, it seems fair to ask to what extent this attack might have been racially motivated, not just because it was an attack on an Obama volunteer but because the target was an Asian American woman. This is especially true given what Takehara reported Goetsch said to her: "we're not his people." As an Asian American, hearing those words gives me a chill; it echoes those familiar phrases Asian Americans are so used to hearing, like "you don’t belong here" and "go back where you came from.” Let’s hope that the statement "you're not our people" was just misguided partisan rhetoric and not something more insidious.

Aside from one terrifying close-quarters encounter in college, I haven't been harassed in that kind of nakedly hostile way since the age of 15 or so. But hearing about the Takehara encounter gives me a sense of atavistic dread wrapped up in my childhood experiences of racist bullying. And I don't think the Takehara encounter will ever be resolved. The full reasons are never going to come to the surface.

As Yu makes sure to note, the recent race-baiting hoax by a McCain volunteer throws this case into sharper perspective, although the McCain case is going to get much more media coverage.

This might sound like a counterintuitive thing to say, but I'm not too upset at the woman who lied. Like anyone who makes up an outrageous charge and claims to be a victim of liberalism or racism or sexism or what have you... 1) they're mentally ill and don't carry their plan out in a logical way 2) they gain nothing from it in the long-term because they almost never get away with it anymore 3) it backfires and they suffer hugely from the negative attention.

On the individual level, that woman made her bed and is going to have to lie in it. There's little more to say. But I do blame elements of the media, the RNC and gullible racists in general for promulgating her story and getting so disgustingly excited about it. Whipping up hatred and fear of black men is something that has real consequences for millions of people. The race-baiting and Muslim-hating has reached a horrific level.

I was joking with out therapist today that if McCain got elected, she'd get a lot more business. She agreed, but then said that nobody would have enough money to pay for those sessions.

Moving back to personal stuff, Sunny had one very bad day last week in school. He got the lowest mark for behavior and was doing the opposite of what the teacher told him to do. It reminded me of what he did last weekend, when I told him not to take his socks off and he did the opposite. For getting a bad mark at school, Sunny got the pre-established consequence: the weekend video game time he earned for previous good marks all got wiped out. He was also grounded for the day and had to make an apology to his teacher the next day.

Talking to the therapist gave us some general insight into why he was misbehaving. She says it's probably revenge, and the revenge is because of not having enough control. He did receive a lot of disappointing news last week. Apparently the most disappointing is that the teacher told him testing week is over. Sunny LOVES testing. Part of his IEP states that he needs separate testing accommodations. From his point of view, testing is a wonderful, wonderful thing where he gets to go to a special room, gets special attention by a teacher's aide, gets to bubble-in fun worksheets, and when he's finished, play Uno with the teacher's aide (since he finishes the tests twice as fast as everyone else, he has plenty of spare time).

We already know he needs more control, it's just difficult to work out specific measures. The therapist recommended more work with art, which we're going to try over the next weeks. She also agreed with me that I shouldn't do too much academic work with him. I can leave that to the tutor in order to concentrate more on bonding and fun stuff.

Sunny really wants to go to a haunted house. We were actually going to go to one last weekend, but his behavior wasn't good enough. It's also tough finding the right place. Given that he has a recurring nightmare about a man with a chainsaw chopping off his foot, I don't think any of the adult-oriented ones would be a good idea. We finally found a good one that we're going to this weekend. It's geared around ghost storytelling and dark spooky places, not monsters and gore.

Here's a picture of Sunny getting into the Halloween spirit! He's wearing the scary, scary cereal box mask he made with his dad.

A Moving Post...

...about Obama's ailing grandmother.

Ta-Nehisi Coates
I hope this is in good taste

[...]
Likewise, I was looking at this picture of Obama's grandparents and thinking how much he looks like his grandfather. And suddenly, for whatever reason, I was struck by the fact that they had made the decision to love their daughter, no matter what, and love their grandson, no matter what. I'd bet money that they never even thought of themselves as courageous, that they didn't give much thought to the broader struggles in the the world at the time. They were just doing what right, honorable people do. But the fact is that, in the 60s, you could be disowned for falling in love with a black woman or black man.
[...]

Coates' post is already followed by a ton of complimentary comments. I can really empathize with what he says. My grandparents initially had a lot of issues with their daughter marrying a Japanese man, but they also did the right thing, and I'm proud of them.

Sunny At His Worst

As a treat, we took Sunny to a large indoor jungle gym he'd been asking to go to for a week. He saw a boy taking his socks off and asked me if he could take his socks off. I said, "definitely not, no way."

Five minutes later, I saw him running around in the gym with no socks on! "But I forgot," he said.

I made him stop playing, put his socks back on and leave immediately. He was pretty upset about this, of course, and went into a big fake cry, which my husband and I ignored. I can always tell a fake cry because he sort of looks out of the corner of his eyes as he's doing it.

I gave him a mini-lecture that he had just made a very bad choice and was just compounding it by fake crying. Not only did he ignore what I'd told him to do, he was endangering his poor feet! Sunny has a case of athlete's foot, and every morning and every night we clean his feet, put Lamisil cream on his toes and put them in clean socks. He's normally very good about putting up with this, even though the creme tickles him.

Sunny is usually good at following directions, but boy is he stubborn. You can't give an inch because he'll take a mile. We could tell that from the first day we met him. I have to be strict with him in a lot of ways.

I don't see him as manipulative, though. He doesn't manipulate for the sake of manipulation. He does it because he sees something he wants, then a switch flips in his brain, and he has to make sure all routes of getting what he wants are exhausted. It's amazing how imaginative and logical he can be at imagining these routes. He also has a great memory for all the possible precedents and exceptions that could apply to the case at hand.

I don't see any solution to this pattern of behavior. I think we're always going to have occasional clashes and storms. However, the other side of the coin is positive. He's confident. He knows what he wants. He's incredibly articulate when it comes to expressing this. Even though he's impulsive, he's open to reason and is always looking for reasons and asking about the reasons of things... and that's going to be a good foundation for developing critical thinking skills.

I think I'd have a much harder time raising a child who was more of an uncertain and indecisive type.

Letter to a Prospective Adoptive Parent

I just sent this to a relative of a friend of my husband's who had emailed me about adoption.

She sounded rather lost and frightened in her short email. I wanted to be encouraging, and I've probably failed at that, but at least she'll be a lot more informed after my reply.

Some words are altered for privacy.

Hi []!

I'd be happy to offer advice and point you towards more information.

There are two basic kinds of domestic adoption, private and public (foster care). We went through foster care. Our son [Sunny] is six now, and had been in foster care since the age of two, as his extended family could not or would not take care of him. His social workers started looking for an adoptive family when he was five.

We began our adoption process in late 2006 and weren't matched with [Sunny] until early 2008. It was a very difficult period waiting, but we're very happy because it was all worth it. Right now he is in "pre-adoptive placement" status. This means we are his guardians, but our social worker still supervises us; she visits us once a month. Once [Sunny] has been with us for six months, then we can legally adopt, and then there will be no more visits and we'll have the same legal rights as biological parents.

[Sunny] had some special needs listed, like ADHD, and is on a medication. However, many kids in foster care are on more medication than they need, and we're gradually reducing his medicine. We think he might not need any medication at all eventually. He's doing great in school and we might even get him into a gifted program in a few grades. He's a happy little kid and has so much love to give.

Since we adopted through the state, our adoption is going to be totally free. Our trip expenses visiting his foster family will be reimbursed. We also get a monthly subsidy of $[] from his state. Some of that I'm using for things like his swim and soccer and therapy and tutoring; half of it is going to a college fund.

That's the route we picked. We did what is called a "straight adoption" where there was no fostering period first. We did it that way because we didn't want to go through having to foster many children and return most of them. But fostering first (AKA "foster to adopt") is really how most adoptions in the system get done, and also the only way to adopt an infant. We weren't set on adopting an infant, though. Babies are cute, but not much fun to talk to! [Sunny] being school-aged has worked out great for us. However, we might end up adopting a baby as well, because [Sunny]'s little brother has also entered the foster care system and will probably get placed with us.

Besides the foster care system, there is private infant adoption. Through an agency or independently, mothers who want to voluntarily relinquish their children meet up with adoptive parents. There is a lot of competition to get placed with a baby. The adoptive parents pay large fees and legal expenses. I've heard up to $30,000. I had no interest in this route. There are many problems I saw. For one example, white babies are priced much higher than black babies, which reflects a lot of racism in the system. Many expectant mothers aren't well informed, and regret their decision and suffer from Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. I know it's possible for private adoption to be done ethically, and I do think open adoption is usually in the best interests of the child in these kinds of cases. But for me personally, I didn't want to navigate the ethical issues involved in private adoption.

It's impossible for me to tell you exactly what you should do, so I'm just explaining my own process of decision. But here's some general advice. I'm not going to sugarcoat anything. When I was at the start of the process, I really appreciated honest advice, because there is a LOT of misguided stuff out there when it comes to adoption.

It's going to be difficult no matter what you do. If you go private you will have to sell yourself and your family to expectant mothers. If you go foster care, you have to sell yourselves to social workers. The potential humiliation is actually the least of it -- agencies and social workers will routinely lie and screw you over. They often tell you what you want to hear because they think you can't handle the truth. Be prepared, and don't automatically trust anyone. Follow up, verify, do your own research.

Try to let go of your ego. Instead of thinking "can I handle this" or "can I handle that", think "my child will need this or that, and do I have the strength to live up to that crucial responsibility". Adopted children need you to help them keep connections to their roots (in a safe way). Even when they come from a pretty depressing background, they usually still need that connection. My son says he has three moms -- his bio mom, foster mom and me -- and I think that's a healthy way for him to understand his situation.

There are many older waiting children in the system who desperately want parents. Year after year, they wait to be adopted, and eventually they get so old that they have to go out in the world without a family. If you go to [photolisting link] you will see the ones just in [your state].

That's it for now. Let me know if you have any more questions. I'd also recommend looking up internet groups to find other people who are on the same path you might want to take. http://groups.yahoo.com has many specialized groups like that. If you have more specific questions I can also point you towards more resources. Finally, good luck. I'm not going to tell you it's going to be easy, but like I said, I did it and I think it was all worth it!

Regards,
[atlasien]

[Attached: family picture with beaming faces]

Hedge Fund Manager Bows Out, Sparks Up

I promise I'll get back to real blogging soon, not just quoting. But in the meantime, I just had to share this letter. I love his perspective.

Hedge Fund Manager: Goodbye ... And Think Pot
Topics:Earnings | Economy (U.S.)
By Matthew Malone, Portfolio.com | 17 Oct 2008 | 12:48 PM ET

From the Scorched Earth Files:

Andrew Lahde, manager of a small California hedge fund, Lahde Capital, burst into the spotlight last year after his one-year-old fund returned 866 percent betting against the subprime collapse.

Last month, he did the unthinkable -- he shut things down, claiming dealing with his bank counterparties had become too risky. Today, Lahde passed along his "goodbye" letter, a rollicking missive on everything from greed to economic philosophy. Enjoy:

Today I write not to gloat. Given the pain that nearly everyone is experiencing, that would be entirely inappropriate. Nor am I writing to make further predictions, as most of my forecasts in previous letters have unfolded or are in the process of unfolding. Instead, I am writing to say goodbye.

Recently, on the front page of Section C of the Wall Street Journal, a hedge fund manager who was also closing up shop (a $300 million fund), was quoted as saying, "What I have learned about the hedge fund business is that I hate it." I could not agree more with that statement. I was in this game for the money. The low hanging fruit, i.e. idiots whose parents paid for prep school, Yale, and then the Harvard MBA, was there for the taking. These people who were (often) truly not worthy of the education they received (or supposedly received) rose to the top of companies such as AIG, Bear Stearns and Lehman Brothers and all levels of our government. All of this behavior supporting the Aristocracy, only ended up making it easier for me to find people stupid enough to take the other side of my trades. God bless America.

There are far too many people for me to sincerely thank for my success. However, I do not want to sound like a Hollywood actor accepting an award. The money was reward enough. Furthermore, the endless list those deserving thanks know who they are.

I will no longer manage money for other people or institutions. I have enough of my own wealth to manage. Some people, who think they have arrived at a reasonable estimate of my net worth, might be surprised that I would call it quits with such a small war chest. That is fine; I am content with my rewards. Moreover, I will let others try to amass nine, ten or eleven figure net worths. Meanwhile, their lives suck. Appointments back to back, booked solid for the next three months, they look forward to their two week vacation in January during which they will likely be glued to their Blackberries or other such devices. What is the point? They will all be forgotten in fifty years anyway. Steve Balmer, Steven Cohen, and Larry Ellison will all be forgotten. I do not understand the legacy thing. Nearly everyone will be forgotten. Give up on leaving your mark. Throw the Blackberry away and enjoy life.

So this is it. With all due respect, I am dropping out. Please do not expect any type of reply to emails or voicemails within normal time frames or at all. Andy Springer and his company will be handling the dissolution of the fund. And don't worry about my employees, they were always employed by Mr. Springer's company and only one (who has been well-rewarded) will lose his job.

I have no interest in any deals in which anyone would like me to participate. I truly do not have a strong opinion about any market right now, other than to say that things will continue to get worse for some time, probably years. I am content sitting on the sidelines and waiting. After all, sitting and waiting is how we made money from the subprime debacle. I now have time to repair my health, which was destroyed by the stress I layered onto myself over the past two years, as well as my entire life -- where I had to compete for spaces in universities and graduate schools, jobs and assets under management -- with those who had all the advantages (rich parents) that I did not. May meritocracy be part of a new form of government, which needs to be established.

On the issue of the U.S. Government, I would like to make a modest proposal. First, I point out the obvious flaws, whereby legislation was repeatedly brought forth to Congress over the past eight years, which would have reigned in the predatory lending practices of now mostly defunct institutions. These institutions regularly filled the coffers of both parties in return for voting down all of this legislation designed to protect the common citizen. This is an outrage, yet no one seems to know or care about it. Since Thomas Jefferson and Adam Smith passed, I would argue that there has been a dearth of worthy philosophers in this country, at least ones focused on improving government.

Capitalism worked for two hundred years, but times change, and systems become corrupt. George Soros, a man of staggering wealth, has stated that he would like to be remembered as a philosopher. My suggestion is that this great man start and sponsor a forum for great minds to come together to create a new system of government that truly represents the common man's interest, while at the same time creating rewards great enough to attract the best and brightest minds to serve in government roles without having to rely on corruption to further their interests or lifestyles. This forum could be similar to the one used to create the operating system, Linux, which competes with Microsoft's near monopoly. I believe there is an answer, but for now the system is clearly broken.

Lastly, while I still have an audience, I would like to bring attention to an alternative food and energy source. You won't see it included in BP's, "Feel good. We are working on sustainable solutions," television commercials, nor is it mentioned in ADM's similar commercials. But hemp has been used for at least 5,000 years for cloth and food, as well as just about everything that is produced from petroleum products. Hemp is not marijuana and vice versa. Hemp is the male plant and it grows like a weed, hence the slang term. The original American flag was made of hemp fiber and our Constitution was printed on paper made of hemp. It was used as recently as World War II by the U.S. Government, and then promptly made illegal after the war was won. At a time when rhetoric is flying about becoming more self-sufficient in terms of energy, why is it illegal to grow this plant in this country?

Ah, the female. The evil female plant -- marijuana. It gets you high, it makes you laugh, it does not produce a hangover. Unlike alcohol, it does not result in bar fights or wife beating. So, why is this innocuous plant illegal? Is it a gateway drug? No, that would be alcohol, which is so heavily advertised in this country. My only conclusion as to why it is illegal, is that Corporate America, which owns Congress, would rather sell you Paxil, Zoloft, Xanax and other additive drugs, than allow you to grow a plant in your home without some of the profits going into their coffers. This policy is ludicrous. It has surely contributed to our dependency on foreign energy sources. Our policies have other countries literally laughing at our stupidity, most notably Canada, as well as several European nations (both Eastern and Western). You would not know this by paying attention to U.S. media sources though, as they tend not to elaborate on who is laughing at the United States this week. Please people, let's stop the rhetoric and start thinking about how we can truly become self-sufficient.

With that I say good-bye and good luck.

All the best,

Andrew Lahde

Bob the Builder

This is hilarious, and very cute!

What about Bob the Builder?
by Left in Texas
Thu Oct 16, 2008 at 08:10:26 AM PDT

With all this talk about Joe the Plumber's tax situation, I got to wondering how some other characters might be affected by this election.

This is what I found.

Bob the Builder

Bob the Builder is a construction contractor, specializing in masonry repair. He is an early supporter of Barack Obama, mainly due to his use of Bob’s catchphrase (Can we fix it? Yes we can!). The more Bob learns about Obama and his policies, the more enthusiastic he is about his candidacy.

Bob’s main concerns are the effect the coming recession will have on his business and the cost of providing health insurance to his employees. He believes that Obama’s plans for health insurance and the economy offer the best hope for the future.

Dora the Explorer

Dora the Explorer’s number one issue is the environment. While the candidates have paid lip service to global warming, neither has addressed the issue of conservation and reversing the policies of the Bush administration with respect to the EPA.

Dora likes to stress compromise and never forces her beliefs on others. Consequently, she is concerned about the tone of the McCain/Palin campaign and the behavior of their supporters.

She is impressed with Obama’s demeanor and will enthusiastically be voting for the Democrat come November 4th.

Thomas the Tank Engine

Thomas is pleased that so much discussion has been centered on the country’s dependence on foreign oil. Although concerned at the price of gas, he is happy to note that rider ship on the nation’s railways is increasing.

While a lot of the discussion has been focused on alternative fuels, Thomas wishes that the candidates would express their views on public transportation, like light rail and high-speed inter city rail as an alternative to the automobile.

Thomas feels that McCain is too closely tied to the big oil companies and any chance of expanding the nation’s public transportation network will only come through an Obama administration.

Wile E Coyote

Wile E Coyote has only one concern – where his next meal is coming from. He is exclusively focused on one issue – catching the Road Runner.

His plans invariably fail in spectacular fashion, often blowing up in his face. Despite evidence to the contrary, he believes that endlessly doing the same thing over and over will eventually pay dividends.

Wile E Coyote will be voting for John McCain.

Quick Note on Watching the Debate

Damn, Obama is doing well. He's been turning a lot of attacks back on McCain. He's coming off as smart, secure, issues-based.

Here's an appropriate cinematic analogy of Obama's powerful smear defense technique.

What the 2008 Nobel Prize Winner in Economics thinks of McCain

Princeton University's Paul Krugman Wins Nobel Economics Prize
By Simon Kennedy and Rich Miller

Oct. 13 (Bloomberg) -- Princeton University Professor Paul Krugman, known as much for his criticism of George W. Bush's policies as for his academic work, won the Nobel Prize in economics for his theories on world trade.

Krugman, 55, was honored ``for his analysis of trade patterns and location of economic activity,'' said the Royal Swedish Academy of Sciences, which selects the winners. His work showed how economies of scale influence trade and urbanization.

[...]

This message of the article below is what I worked on communicating to undecided voters the other week. I'm not an economic expert, but I can appreciate someone who is.

The 3 A.M. Call
By PAUL KRUGMAN
Published: September 28, 2008

It’s 3 a.m., a few months into 2009, and the phone in the White House rings. Several big hedge funds are about to fail, says the voice on the line, and there’s likely to be chaos when the market opens. Whom do you trust to take that call?

I’m not being melodramatic. The bailout plan released yesterday is a lot better than the proposal Henry Paulson first put out — sufficiently so to be worth passing. But it’s not what you’d actually call a good plan, and it won’t end the crisis. The odds are that the next president will have to deal with some major financial emergencies.

So what do we know about the readiness of the two men most likely to end up taking that call? Well, Barack Obama seems well informed and sensible about matters economic and financial. John McCain, on the other hand, scares me.

About Mr. Obama: it’s a shame that he didn’t show more leadership in the debate over the bailout bill, choosing instead to leave the issue in the hands of Congressional Democrats, especially Chris Dodd and Barney Frank. But both Mr. Obama and the Congressional Democrats are surrounded by very knowledgeable, clear-headed advisers, with experienced crisis managers like Paul Volcker and Robert Rubin always close at hand.

Then there’s the frightening Mr. McCain — more frightening now than he was a few weeks ago.

We’ve known for a long time, of course, that Mr. McCain doesn’t know much about economics — he’s said so himself, although he’s also denied having said it. That wouldn’t matter too much if he had good taste in advisers — but he doesn’t.

Remember, his chief mentor on economics is Phil Gramm, the arch-deregulator, who took special care in his Senate days to prevent oversight of financial derivatives — the very instruments that sank Lehman and A.I.G., and brought the credit markets to the edge of collapse. Mr. Gramm hasn’t had an official role in the McCain campaign since he pronounced America a “nation of whiners,” but he’s still considered a likely choice as Treasury secretary.

And last year, when the McCain campaign announced that the candidate had assembled “an impressive collection of economists, professors, and prominent conservative policy leaders” to advise him on economic policy, who was prominently featured? Kevin Hassett, the co-author of “Dow 36,000.” Enough said.

Now, to a large extent the poor quality of Mr. McCain’s advisers reflects the tattered intellectual state of his party. Has there ever been a more pathetic economic proposal than the suggestion of House Republicans that we try to solve the financial crisis by eliminating capital gains taxes? (Troubled financial institutions, by definition, don’t have capital gains to tax.)

But even President Bush has, in the twilight of his administration, turned to relatively sensible people to make economic decisions: I’m not a fan of Mr. Paulson, but he’s a vast improvement over his predecessor. At this point, one has the suspicion that a McCain administration would have us longing for Bush-era competence.

The real revelation of the last few weeks, however, has been just how erratic Mr. McCain’s views on economics are. At any given moment, he seems to have very strong opinions — but a few days later, he goes off in a completely different direction.

Thus on Sept. 15 he declared — for at least the 18th time this year — that “the fundamentals of our economy are strong.” This was the day after Lehman failed and Merrill Lynch was taken over, and the financial crisis entered a new, even more dangerous stage.

But three days later he declared that America’s financial markets have become a “casino,” and said that he’d fire the head of the Securities and Exchange Commission — which, by the way, isn’t in the president’s power.

And then he found a new set of villains — Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac, the government-sponsored lenders. (Despite some real scandals at Fannie and Freddie, they played little role in causing the crisis: most of the really bad lending came from private loan originators.) And he moralistically accused other politicians, including Mr. Obama, of being under Fannie’s and Freddie’s financial influence; it turns out that a firm owned by his own campaign manager was being paid by Freddie until just last month.

Then Mr. Paulson released his plan, and Mr. McCain weighed vehemently into the debate. But he admitted, several days after the Paulson plan was released, that he hadn’t actually read the plan, which was only three pages long.

O.K., I think you get the picture.

The modern economy, it turns out, is a dangerous place — and it’s not the kind of danger you can deal with by talking tough and denouncing evildoers. Does Mr. McCain have the judgment and temperament to deal with that part of the job he seeks?

Throwing Up, and Money Worries

Sunny did not have a good day yesterday. He had an upset tummy through most of the morning, then ended up projectile vomiting in Nana's car. I had just remarked to my mother, "Sunny is awfully quiet..." when a fountain of liquid came from his mouth and hit the side of the car, followed by a cough, and then another fountain.

We cleaned up and babied him for a while. I gave him a long bath with all his dinosaur toys, he got to drink a 7-Up (this normally NEVER happens, because we don't drink soda and never have any in the house), then he got a PBJ sandwich and a banana while sitting on the couch watching a DVD of his choice. After an hour or so he was totally recovered and ready to go outside and ride his bicycle. I'm not sure what happened; he didn't eat anything out of the ordinary for breakfast. His foster mother once mentioned him having to stay home from school because of throwing up. I don't think it was anything serious.

Sunny has been kind of cranky and oppositional ever since, including this morning.

Guy is very stressed out about money right now, and he said that Sunny might be picking up on that. We really need to control that. Personally, I feel fine. I think as a family we're in a pretty good position. My job is stable, although like any other non-union non-government job, I could be laid off at any time for any reason. If I did get laid off tomorrow, it would suck, and I couldn't easily get another job for anywhere near what I make now, but I'd find something. However, Guy is spoiled because he's been working at what he loves for the last 15 years and he has his own business. He's consumed by what would happen if it goes south. He has hardly any business debt, but his field is very vulnerable to a bad economy.

To me it's simple. Just hold tight, maybe get a part-time job you hate for a bit until things turn around. As long as I have my job, we'd be OK, and if we didn't have my job, we'd still figure out a way to be OK.

I feel very little connection between my job and my worth as a human being. That's easy to say because I'm employed, of course... but back when I was younger and bouncing around, I felt that way. I always went for the jobs that paid the most money, even though they were often the least prestigious ones. And for what I really wanted to do, I never expected to be paid much money for.

My husband is lucky to be doing what he loves and doing it for himself, unlike 99% of the people out there. His many years of hard work and natural skill have a lot to do with it, of course, but landing in the field he landed was the lucky part. The danger is that there's no wall between work and life and worth. He has got to develop that. We've talked a lot about this before.

There's one positive step... we're thinking about renting out a room in our house. We both decided that would be a good idea, as long as we know the person beforehand. There's a friend of my cousin who'd be a good candidate. Of course, we'd have to clear it with Sunny's worker and the roommate might need to be fingerprinted.

Sunny Appreciation Post

The other day, Sunny was so fun to be around.

When I drove him to his swim class, he chattered all the way. He's always curious about the mechanics of things. He learned about sounds and echoes today in school, and we talked about sound for a while. I tried to explain how bats use echolocation. I used my hands to illustrate the sound wave hitting an insect and bouncing back off again, but I wasn't too successful. Sunny just said "I don't understand!" in a mildly exasperated way that was also really cute. He really tried hard, the concept was just too complicated.

I promised him a cookie after class if he could swim a few body lengths by himself without anyone holding him. He's the least advanced swimmer in his class, and I thought he still had an emotional block against swimming by himself in deeper water, one that he was slowly overcoming.

He sort of did it, although he needed a float. I talked to his teacher afterwards. His teacher told me that Sunny was one of the most muscular kids he'd ever seen. And that was the problem! Girls and chubby boys have no problem floating. Even skinny boys can float better than Sunny, because his muscle is so heavy. Sunny can swim really well if he just learns how to float better, and he needs to be taught using a different technique than the other kids. It's not really an emotional block, it's more of a physical one.

He asked me what Sunny did... just soccer twice a week, and swimming twice a week, and lots of running around and bicycling and skateboarding when he's in the mood (which is very frequent).

I think Sunny is going to stay average-to-tall-side-of-short as he grows up. His bio father is also very muscular and not tall, judging from his statistics listed on a listing site that shall not be named.

If Sunny doesn't get too tall, that means he won't be attracted into football... and thank goodness for that. Football and boxing are just too brain-rattling. I'd go for anything up to and including Ultimate Fighting, I just don't want Sunny getting his head banged repeatedly. Judging from his body shape and what he enjoys doing, I can see him doing really well at gymnastics and wrestling, possibly swimming, soccer and baseball, although baseball would be a stretch because there's so much waiting around involved.

Anyway, Sunny got his cookie that night, and some yogurt too. On the way back, he asked me how traffic lights worked, and got really excited about the concept of light shining through colored glass.

My Reaction to the Financial Crisis So Far

I'm keeping a close eye on the stock market. I handle retirement accounts for myself, my mother, father, stepfather and husband. It's pretty ugly out there now!

Luckily, my own 401(k) had been almost entirely in cash by early this year. I didn't like any of the funds, so I've just been parking the money. Thank goodness.

Spread across the other accounts, I had some positions in inverse ETFs that go up when the stock market went down. Those are all sold as of today at high profits, so the accounts have some cash. Right now, I'm planning on 1) waiting until the battered positions come back up again in about three to five years... as long as we have an Obama administration, that is, because with McCain we might be a nuclear wasteland by then 2) waiting until we hit bottom so I can start buying again. Ultimately, this is probably going to be a good buying opportunity.

I know a lot of people are just not looking at their retirement accounts right now because they don't even want to know. All I can say is, face it and take control, it will make you feel better. Get rid of what you need to get rid of, and try to adopt a long-term outlook.

I'm sanguine when it comes to doomsday scenarios. I believe in keeping your eyes open, thinking about the worst and best that could happen, but going about your daily life as if everything is not about to fall apart. Not that I believe things won't ever fall apart, just that if they do, the stock market, cash and even gold is not going to protect us. Nothing will. I'm just a fatalist, not a pessimist or an optimist.

I've been watching some financial news clips at home. I usually don't, because the signal-to-noise ratio is so low. For example, this morning I was trying to get some information about who is going to have it worse over the next couple years, America or Europe. I ended up with a bunch of pundits going off on a completely irrelevant anti-socialist rant.

I actually love reading socialist perspectives on the global financial system. I'm a leftist with an MBA, after all. I've actually read and studied the first volume of Capital. I'm more of a progressive Democrat faux-Socialist nowadays, but I can appreciate the more radical critiques you can get at places like Lenin's Tomb.

I know this may seem odd for an investor like me to say, but individual investing is a terrible way to prepare for retirement. I don't believe in 401(k)s from a policy perspective because they're way too complicated and risky for the average person, especially given the pathetic state of financial education in this country. I feel really terrible for the retirees who are depending on income from their accounts right now. We need a lot more regulation: smart regulation, not worthless stuff like short selling prohibitions. The financial sector is kind of like a brain-damaged cow. It's very large and powerful. You need it for milk, but if not watched very carefully, it might try to eat your shirt or collapse on top of you.

I don't much to say about the bailouts, except that they're probably a bad idea. I don't know enough about economics and finance to advocate for better solutions, though.

The Class of 2006

I feel a bit sad that Maggie at The Open Window has halted her blog.

When I started blogging in 2006, she was one of the first foster care adoption blogs I found. We were at a similar stage in the placement process.

Like other foster care adoption blogs I started reading religiously around that time -- Toots and Noodles and Spotted Dog Turn come to mind -- the blog is going dark.

Foster care adoption is sort of like jumping into a rough ocean. The waiting stage and the placement stage is full of uncertainty and terror. Then you adapt to the ocean (hopefully) and start swimming. At this point, I guess the natural question comes up... why keep blogging?

It's too bad. I really wish there was a more central system of archiving and linking all these kinds of blogs, because they're a more valuable resource than the official training classes you get. But they're more like organic entities forming a fragile ecosystem.

I plan on continuing for a while. I might let things slide for a few weeks or even a month, but I'd like to keep updating as frequently and as long as I can.

Sunny is doing well enough that our current problems are actually rather boring. Nose-picking, for example, and an abortive attempt to slip the dog his vegetables. But I think I'll still have interesting things to talk about here and there, especially since I didn't really start this blog to be 100% adoption. I'm not bored with blogging yet. Also, if I stick around long enough, maybe some of the blogs that have gone dim will light up again...

Political Volunteering

The latest political news is that there's a decent chance Georgia will go for Obama. Here's an article from DailyKos talking about the "black-brown-Asian" Georgia alliance. Awesome!

I spent a lot of time doing voter registration a couple months ago. This last week, I've been working on the other side of the equation: phonebanking to tip undecided white voters. I didn't think I'd be good at it, but it turns out I am. The list we were working from contained voters in Republican strongholds in Atlanta exurbs. I talked to one Obama supporter who wanted to volunteer but said she was afraid to knock on doors in her neighborhood because they might burn a cross on her lawn if they found out she was an Obama supporter.

It was intimidating but ultimately positive. I really think I won some votes. It helps that I have a melodic phone voice, a decent grasp of the issues and know what's circling around in the right-wing media in Georgia.

Here are notes from a typical phone call.

-- Hi, I'm from the Obama campaign
-- exchange of guarded pleasantries
-- here's why I'm supporting Obama: my self-employed breast cancer survivor mother who can't afford insurance. Explanation of Obama's healthcare plan, including a denial that it's "socialized medicine".
-- attack on McCain for being out of touch; add that he used to be an honorable politician but "lost his way". Say he is "out of his depth" on economic issues. Mention Phil Gramm calling Americans a "nation of whiners". Mention that my Vietnam vet stepfather supports Obama because of McCain's bad record on veteran benefits.
-- listen to their issues, see where Obama's platform aligns with theirs
-- ask if they make over $250,000 a year, and if they say no, explain that they will get a tax cut under Obama and need to think about voting their pocketbook.
-- ask if there's anything that makes them wary of Obama or worried about voting for him.

Here's what people say at this point:

-- I heard he doesn't put his hand over his heart when they play the national anthem.
-- I heard he's a Muslim.
-- I heard he used to run ACORN, the organization that enrolls illegal aliens to commit voter fraud while filling out subprime housing loans, thereby causing the current economic crisis
-- I heard he's a terrorist sympathizer
-- I heard he's a Muslimy Muslimy Muslim-head

I had counters planned out for each of these. The Muslim one was the most common and the easiest to go over. I just asked a serious of basic rhetorical questions, such as, "Did you know Muslims don't baptize their kids? Obama had his kids baptized. What kind of Muslim would get their kids baptized?"

It's depressing I can't say "so what if he was a Muslim?" But these people are just not ready for that. Kind of like the Obama supporter from Virginia described in this recent article:

"My niece married a black, and I don't have a problem with it. Now, I wouldn't want a mixed marriage for my daughter, but I'm voting for Obama."

Small steps... small steps.

I think my biggest success was with an elderly lady who was a conservative Democrat ex-Clinton supporter, leaning McCain. After I reassured her that Obama was a Christian and still on his first marriage, she really warmed up to him.

I would be so pumped if Georgia goes for Obama! The odds are still against it, of course.